Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Like a leaf upon the water...
The album that I currently play on "repeat" is Audrey Assad's "This House You're Building". It is beautiful, simple, well-written praise.
One of my favorite songs on the album is called "Restless" - definitely worth a listen! But - the song that brought me to tears is called "Show Me".
I looked up some of the background of the song, and found an article where Audrey Assad says the song is "about not wanting God to take away the pain just yet because I know it’s worth something, and I have something to learn so just leave me here for right now, but be with me.”
This idea resonates deeply with me: understanding that suffering, while painful to go through, still produces fruit and has the unique ability to draw us closer to God. When we endure trials, we have the opportunity to allow God to carry us through the pain and make it something beautiful. As my favorite passage of Scripture says, to allow God to "bestow on [me] a crown of beauty instead of ashes." (Isaiah 61:3)
I love this verse from the song:
I remember feeling like that leaf upon the water so often during the month of February last year. There were so many moments where I had no words to pray. I simply asked God to be with me, asked Him to hold me while I braved the wild currents of my circumstances. I love God for holding me when there were no words, and for leading me now to a place where I can disappear into a deeper beauty - the beauty that only comes from trusting God to carry me through the suffering.